Here's a pause in my usual book review content to bring a mid-year update. Although the first half of 2025 seems to have sped past on wings, it has been eventful in a few ways. Above you'll see an AI generated image of a Mother's Day photo with my three kids that looks very true to life. From left to right is Logan, myself, Blake, and Emma. Now for what's been happening.
My Decision to Quit Masters
Having done very well in my Graduate Diploma, I was quite gung-ho at the start. I expected it to be another cool goal to tick off and add to the inventory of things I've done, that I never expected to. And I was convinced that my idea deserved it. Fan fiction is an unmined treasure trove and my recently finished 92000 word effort had broken a decade-long drought of writing no fiction. The restoration of my mojo made 2024 phenomenal for me.
But the academic pressure instantly got ahold of me. I have plenty of cool insights about the awesomeness of fanfic zipping around in my head like the flying keys in Harry Potter. Yet I couldn't fool myself that I had a chance of catching hold of them all in the time frame required to create any sort of cohesive exegesis. To make the attempt would be to fall short of my vision and not do them justice.
Secondly, I sensed that my story wouldn't bear the weight of what I was hoping to load it with. The academic expectations would be far too heavy, like trying to wrap a courtly robe around the shoulders of a lovely paper doll. My addition to the Little Women universe is pure fun. It is popular fiction, padding out tantalizing, 'What ifs'. I was just daydreaming, getting carried away on the waves of possibilities, filling in gaps left by Louisa May Alcott. To turn it into a major project for a Master of Creative Writing would require the sort of serious thinking I was so happy to shake off during its conception. This isn't literary fiction, folk. Whatever I came up with would've felt like wearing somebody else's coat.
The upshot was, I froze. Then time became an issue. With all of the above playing on my mind, I made a quick decision to withdraw from the course before the census date to avoid adding the fee to my already hefty student debt. There were three days left, so I went with my heart. I couldn't help feeling like a ding-a-ling, and that I'd let people down and lost face. It was an unfortunate way to begin 2025. I think I've learned something about myself but at quite a cost. (My kids actually called me a duffer to my face.)
The new development the same day
I popped into the Goodwood secondhand bookshop on the heels of making that shamefaced decision, to cheer myself up. I went straight to the adolescent fiction section. Vintage YA novels are pretty reliable pick-me-ups. There I took a chance on The Saturdays, by Elizabeth Enright, which I started reading on the train on the way home. That way I could distract myself from the sadness I'd just generated.
To my surprise, the characters really took off in my head. I bought the rest of this series on kindle, and discovered a few comments here and there that its fanbase would really love to know what becomes of these siblings when they grow up. Some people even stated outright that this series deserves some quality fan fiction.
So that's sparked off another of my passion projects. Now, along with my Alcott stuff, I've started writing fanfic about the Melendy quartet, a bunch of young brothers and sisters whose existence I wasn't even aware of when this year commenced! It's going to be pretty low profile, because all these comments were written in blog posts and reviews from many years ago. I doubt they're on many people's radars anymore. But there will be well threshed out stories available for the rare soul who discovers them in future and wonders whatever happened as they move into adulthood.
I've found this is so much the way life is. One impressive looking door might close (even if you slam it shut yourself) and then a more modest, but very appealing crack might slip open, which you weren't even looking for.
My volunteer work with Meals on Wheels
Here is another new facet of my life. I've joined this great organization as a volunteer. Twice a week, since January, I've been delivering lunches to folk in the community. I'd estimate that I've knocked on more doors in the last five months than I'd done for the previous ten years. And I'm enjoying it too. Something about hopping into a car laden with three course meals, seeing more of the local district (some behind closed doors), exchanging greetings and smiles with householders, and patting dogs and cats, makes these days good ones. I've been into both palatial seaside homes, and tiny holes in walls. Now that winter is setting in, I can also state that I've delivered in heatwaves and rainstorms.
I'm making the experiment to quit bookstagram, at for the time being, and then reassess my presence on that platform at the end of the year. You can read more about it here.
Okay, back with my normal agenda next week in July. If you follow along with this blog, I hope you're well and flourishing.